You Follow Me

I was thinking today about the past couple of years and how I have changed and grown as a person. For me a huge challenge in my life has been comparing my blessings and challenges with those of others. I especially just couldn't let go the fact that others out there had been given something that I wanted so much, a daughter. It was something that was such a huge struggle for me I am embarrased to admit. I didn't want to feel envious of others and knew that God alone could help me to overcome this sin. I prayed from the time I found out that Bennett would be my 4th little boy to overcome my feelings of sadness and envy. When he was about 7 months old I came across a blog post by a Christian woman about this very subject and it really hit me. I know that God put that post in my path. I have tried to find it again since and can't track it down. I did however find this article that was very similar, though I liked the other better since it was written in relation to women and things we would compare to each other. Now every time a thought comes to me to compare or be envious of others the words "what is it to you, you follow me" come to my mind. It has been such a liberating thing to let go of the comparisons and just trust that God has a perfect plan for my life. That whatever challenges and blessings he gives me will be for my good.